I got by with a little help from my friends and family

As you can see, I'm back to blogging....it's been a while now hasn't it? When I left the hospital I still was not feeling good at all and it is still taking it's toll on me (getting old is horrible! I want to be 17 again.....waaaaaaaaaaah). I am feeling better than I was, but there are times when I still want to just sleep the day away (as if that will EVER happen).

So I just wanted to let everyone know that one thing is true; a close to almost death experience is quite scary and changes the way you look at things. I thought I was invincible because I was still young (35 isn't that bad right? Although I am half-way to 70- yikes!)- anyway, I lived in this bubble that all was well and that nothing could ever happen. That bubble burst now and it's strange to see how differently you view the world. The birds chirp a bit louder (were they always that noisy?), the wind blows a bit harder and you can actually feel it brush through your hair (or is it just damned cold in NE these days?)....hmmmmm. I will say everything seems clearer. The kids laughter cracks me up and the little annoying things don't seem so annoying anymore (although it does get me crazy when the kids interrupt me when I'm on the phone.....right mom?)-

Anyway, I wanted to say thank you to everyone who has been there to help me the last few weeks. Mom, you are a god send and I don't know what I would have done without all your help while I was in the hospital and when I came home. It was Easter weekend and I know how busy you were at work, but you listened to my fears and sat with me in the ER for what seemed like ever. I'm so glad you were there when they came in and broke the news......I so needed you at that moment.

Dad: Thanks for coming to the hospital to see me and for just listening to my fears. You made me laugh when no one could and I truly think you are amazing. Thanks for just letting me put my head on your shoulder and bounce things off of you. I love you!

Brian - thank you for being the amazing husband that you are. You handled all the kids, getting them to their play dates, keeping up with the house, laundry and dishes. You handled all the kids' mini crises and as hard as it was sitting back and watching it all, you truly can get along without me now can't you? The kids were dressed in their Easter best when they came to get me and I will never forget how beautiful they all looked. So thank you for being able to juggle the household when I couldn't. It truly means a lot and I love you more than you know.

Jen G.- thank you for listening to me cry a LOT. You are truly a wonderful friend and I truly don't know what I'd do without you either. You are my rock at times and you really hold it together like only a true "sister" friend would. So thanks for calling me to check on me every day....I love you much.

To Auntie Ann: Thanks for coming to see me at the hospital. Those places are definitely no fun as you know and it was nice to see a familiar face to help get my mind off things. You are a wonderful aunt and godmother and you are a truly caring person. Thanks and I love you.

To Billy, Katie & Lacey: Thanks for being my cleaning ladies (no pun intended Billy) and for just being there for Brian. You guys are so wonderful and it is nice to know I always have family I can count on. The kids love you and love being with you. It was so nice to know that I didn't have to worry about the little things. Katie: Thanks for being there to watch the kids for all my dr.s' appointments and blood work runs. You have more energy than anyone I know.

For everyone who sent cards: Korkutis Family, Uncle Tony & Diane. Thank you for the well wishes.

Ann Marie: Thank you for e-mailing me every day to see how I was feeling and for just letting me chat openly about things. And Catherine: thanks for attempting to come over with Tyler in the early a.m. It's the thought that counts. Speaking of which, we need a play date!

So thank you everyone for the cards, phone calls, and well wishes. When it comes to raising kids, it sure does take a village to raise them and it sure takes a good networking support from other mommies and friends to help a person pull through a tough time.

I love you all and remember: Life is too short so dance when no one is looking and sing as loud as you can. Be a goofball. And those little birds that were once so darned annoying, are so not annoying any more.



Stacey